Life might feel like it just happens and we have to maneuver around the obstacles, figure out how to stay afloat and stay sane at the same time. But we always hold the reigns, whether we see that or not. - March 10, 2022
Lately I have been teaching myself to "see" the reigns. Acknowledge that I am holding them, and have the ability to create a life... as opposed to just floating along and being sucked into the never ending surge of "daily life" currents.
One specific area I'm working on is my relationship with time. Re-setting my mind to learn how to make time rather than cycling through the never ending battle of trying to find time to do things I feel drawn to do...
I write on a regular basis behind the scenes, but what I don't do is share. Here, on my blog. Even though it is something I feel pulled to do... I resist. I manage to fill up my time with all the "must do" tasks of daily life, until I literally have no time left.
So today I am attempting to nip this... follow through on an idea that has been on my mind for a few weeks.
A two tiered idea, actually.
One. To create a new habit and make time for my writing each weekend. Even if I don't post weekly, at least begin to build the habit. Be consistent. (even if all I do is a whole lot of hand wringing!)
Two. Play with content I already have. Search for quotes, thoughts, sentences from my journal (recent or old) and elaborate on them. Write brief blog posts... and work through my resistance to post them!
That's it. Nothing ground breaking, but it's a start.
Because it seems my only obstacle to beat is my runaway mind. The illusion of time. But time is made, not found.
To write, or not to write, is up to me.
The reigns are mine to direct the course of my life, and today I choose to tug on them lightly.
Give the "pull" within me a chance to surface.