You don't have a problem, you have a condition. The human condition. - February 28th, 2023

Forever in search of the next best self-help book, my last purchase became my last straw.

Tossing it violently across the room, I was not only angry at myself for falling for the thousands of 5-star reviews, but more so furious at these supposed brilliant brains, these psychotherapists, neuropsychologists, and fancy named professionals that literally tell me nothing but state the obvious.

Reaping the financial rewards, regurgitating.

I realized in that moment that perhaps I understand life more than I give myself credit. And that the key is to simply take responsibility for my actions or inactions, as it may be. To stop procrastinating and start reading from my own book.

The book of Ruth.

Because no one but me can reset the record in my brain that skips and repeats, over and over. No one else has the ability to replace my old news. That's on me. For me to rewrite. Besides, there is no problem to fix. The good news is my condition is not unique. I am not unique. I am human number "x" billion and...

I am so tiny in relation to everything. Smaller than a speck of dust, a microorganism, or a spec of dust on the back of a microorganism!

Most days my brain tricks me into thinking otherwise but it's the truth.

Moreover, a day will come when my ever so important life will simply dissolve into the cosmos and be forgotten. And I won't even know it.

Seriously. Sometimes I just have to put my life into perspective to realize, there is no problem.